Sunday, October 30, 2011

Making the most out of it

Another one of those nights where I feel like writing down random things.
I'm really blessed.
Truly :)


Was just reading through a lot of things, and remembering a lot of moments, and each and every one of those moments and things that I read put a smile on my face :) I really do have amazing people around me.
People who are always there for me.
People who are always there to make me laugh.
People who are always there to make me feel better.
People who understand.


I really couldn't and probably shouldn't ask for more. Thank you Lord for all the little things that make me smile, all the things that make me happy even though they mean nothing to everyone else.



Initially didn't like that this candid picture of me was taken. But now I'm kinda appreciating it, cuz I'm truly laughing, not faking it, and I really am happy :)


On a random note, do I look like a trust-worthy, responsible treasurer of PsychSoc? :P

|Tonight and every night, as well as everyday, I promise to try and look at everything in my life and to remember and appreciate the good times, instead of moaning and groaning about all the bad ones.|

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Things to do by 2012? I hope.

Nothing to do with the fact that everyone believes the world is going to end in 2012. I'm just doing this cuz I need to remind myself to do something and it just needs to be put somewhere. So where else better to put this other than on my blog? :)


Drag my pathetic little cowardly self to donate blood next year, somewhere in October with Shaun Lim. (because he said I ditch him otherwise)


I don't know what else to do by next year. I really only needed to write that. LOL. But while I'm at it, here's the few things I ticked off my older "random things to do during summer" and another "random list of things to do" lists.


Summer list

  1. Climb Broga Hill and take sunrise pictures
  2. Fly kites during sunset
  3. Road trip!
  4. Ice skate
  5. Shop for new clothes and new shoes! =D
  6. Slumber parties =)
  7. Skype all night with the girls
  8. Let the people I love know that I love them, because I really do 
Older random list

  1. Climb up some mountain and watch the sunrise.. (broga aint' not mountain but wth la LOL)
  2. Run in a field when it's super windy..
  3. Climb a tree and sit at the top, and face somewhere that has a view.. (if skytrex counts)
One very noticeable thing that was on BOTH lists that I failed to do is to 

lie down on a beach and watch the stars. 

So that has to be done by the end of next year. For real. 


The last time I was on a beach =.= Jan 2011, so long ago.

Oh one more thing to add to the list. Or rather to repeat again cuz it was on my previous list too.

Have a picnic by a waterfall.

Okay I'm done. Goodbye :)

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Disturbance

#nowplaying The Only Exception by Paramore


I need to get a grip of myself.
I need to stop being lazy.
I need to start studying for real.


I fell asleep in my cognitive lecture today during the last 20 minutes. You have no idea HOW HARD I fought with myself to stop myself from sleeping. But my lack of sleep, together with a boring perception lecture regarding vision (I DETEST learning about the visual system btw) and to top it off the heavy rain, my eyes just couldn't keep open.


Today morning/afternoon was my happy day anyway. My classmate commented and said that I look like I slimmed down some more from when our sem just started :) TOTALLY made me damn happy. Oh plus another little incident in a social networking site that made me happily giggling in Cognitive class to Yeing like a dumb blonde. OH and also, my hot lecturer said hi to me today :D


Was initially a bit sad when I started this blog post. 
Why? 
All I'll say is that sometimes I express myself in ways that are contradictory to the what I'm really feeling. 
In reality, I'm only being distant and probably somewhat aloof only because it just constantly feels like I'm a disturbance to you, and I don't know how to go about things the right way.
But I'm feeling fine now. Just did something pretty amusingly stupid to ease that sickening feeling of not knowing what to do. :D Sometimes I'm really amusing. LOL.


Anywaaaaayy, no class tomorrow and pick-up has been changed to Fri. I wanna eat Sushi, so badly :( Hmmm thinking of what to do now tomorrow. Wanna go out, watch a movie? Hmmm maybe. Or I could just stay home and rot. We'll see. 
Oh my sushi :(


#nowplaying I Run To You by Lady Antebellum

Monday, October 17, 2011

Clarity

When things happen and they happen in a way we didn't want them to, we almost always NEVER understand why they happen and we almost always question why it happened and we complain that life isn't fair. Well I'm here to tell you that life just isn't fair, deal with it. LOL.
No okay jokes aside. I'm here to hopefully inject some optimism into you :)


Trust me when i say I know how it feels like.
How it feels like to not understand. 
How it feels like to not know.
Because I've been there.


Technically I'm probably still somewhere there, but I'm at the stage where it's getting better. Some sort of clarity is slowly coming upon me, and I'm starting to see the reasons why things didn't happen the way I want them to. Just a bit though, I'm still trying. :)


Take comfort in knowing that God has his reasons for whatever that happens to you. You might not see it now, but you WILL see it sometime in the future. And when you do see it, you'll understand exactly why God did what He did.


To push you to your limits.
To test your patience.
To make you a stronger person.
To show you that you're worth more than you know.
To help you appreciate all the things that DO go your way in life.
Because what you want might not be what you need.
Because He sees it all and He has something greater in store for you.


What's one or two or even several setbacks in life when you know that you have God on your side? All He asks of you is faith, faith and more faith. Keep believing in Him, and you'll see that things do get better. 
Don't go constantly looking for all the answers you need. Don't search so hard that you miss out on all the little things He makes better each day. When you least expect it, clarity and comfort comes in many forms.


Through a song.
Through the words of a friend.
Through a hug from someone you love.
Through something you see.
Through something you read.
Through something you learn in class.
Through random thoughts in your mind.
Through your dreams.


Today my lecturer was teaching about Freud and psychoanalysis and he happened to be pretty hot and interesting, plus I actually find Freud intriguing so I was paying attention. Many things he said struck something inside in me. But the most significant phrase he said was something about "the ability to talk and express yourself especially emotionally is a sign of good psychological health".


Won't say much on how it touched me, but it definitely did. I'm slowly beginning to see that the reason why God didn't allow things to happen the way I did is because He wants me to be prepared, and He wants me to get the best that I possibly can. He will not settle for giving me something just cuz I want it, because in His eyes, He knows that I deserve the best and what I want was probably not the best that He can give me.


I love the way He slowly reveals things to me. And He will do the same for you, if you just trust in Him and have faith and allow Him to work His plans in your life. :) When all else fails, God will not. No one will be able to compare to Him cuz his love is perfect. And we only love because God loved us first.


In every cloud there's a silver lining. |#One Day You Will- Lady Antebellum|


If you hold on, shadows will be lost in the light. |#Holes Inside- Joe Brooks|


Life is so much more than what your eyes are seeing, 
You will find your way if you keep believing. |#That's What Faith Can Do- Kutless|


All the while You hear each spoken need,
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things. |#Blessings- Laura Story|



Sunday, October 16, 2011

Happy 20th Birthday Phoeb!

My awesome best friend turned 20 today! So just a short short post for her (cuz I'm really tired from baking all weekend LOL).


HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY PHOEB!



17 years old us, back in high sch :P


18 years old us, Taylor's days in our 195U apartment on Phoeb's bed :)


19 years old us, in MV for one of the days we went out.


Pout pout pout. 20 years old us beginning of this year for Tun and Renu's birthday celebration.


One of our skype dates this year, with us showing off our fav soft toys, Rubello and Simon :D


Summer this year on Broga Hill :)


Our latest picture together, during reunion in Ng's house. Karaoke duet buddies :)


Thanks for all the times, all the years, all the memories and for everything else. Cannot imagine life without you seriously. You know I'll always be here for you no matter what, no matter where :) Here's to many many many more years of friendship, and to a friendship that gets better as the years go by. I love you Phoeb! :)


P/s: Don't have pictures from when we were waaaaay waaaaaay younger back then la. I should go dig and scan them Phoeb :P

Friday, October 14, 2011

Cha-ching cha-ching, ba-bling ba-bling

Just in case you haven't watched it yet, here you go :) 




If you like it please share it and spread the joy k :) We're doing what we love and we're loving what we do :P

P/s: Okay taking a break from promoting my musical self to focus on my baking self :)

Scarred.

Literally kay. Not just joking bout my emotional instability. Lmao. Had a blast and I love ultimate but my injuries are SO ridiculous. Well technically I get injured even when I'm not playing ultimate so what the heck la really. I'll just keep living like this. I've got nothing to say just wanted to show ya'll my new scraped knees :D


BTW, I LOVE living off these endorphins I get from exercising. Should make it a point to exercise everyday regardless whether there is ultimate or not. No ultimate, I should just go jog and run. I want them endorphins yo. (Hmmm that kinda makes endorphins my drug, no?) 
Wiki says this about the term endorphin and why it's named like that: 
It consists of two parts: endo- and -orphin; these are short forms of the words endogenous and morphine, intended to mean "a morphine-like substance originating from within the body."


P/s: Okay done being smarty smart and all bio-ish. See my knees.



So gross, I know.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Played

#nowplaying You Can't Break A Broken Heart by Kate Voegele


Life's funny you know. So many things happen and it builds you up just to tear you down.
Played by life indeed.
Anyhow, NO FUN being in second year. The lectures are SO much heavier than when I was in Year 1. Cognitive today was literally 2 hours nonstop of continuous semi-nonsensical facts about perception. The lecturer is good, there's just SO MUCH to cover (btw we couldn't finish covering the slides). 
So dense, so dense,
WAY TOO DENSE.


I'm actually going to go and STUDY in a short while, THAT should give you some indication on just how bad things are. Cuz if you know me well enough you'll know that I NEVER study when it's not exam period. Ahh how my Year 2 is starting to change me. This afternoon I read 4 pages on Freud to prepare for next week's CHIP lecture o.O
I'm amazing even myself.
Seriously.


On a happier note, my group built our experiment today and ran it and it totally works and everything seems to be right. Just need to get the green light from Professor Peter on Friday and we're all good to start our experiment. 
SO BANGGA cuz we did it ourselves :)
Semi better than when we were first year students la :P


Our uni had some Nestle Drumstick thingy going on today and we like happy kids went and bought ice-cream and did this.



I look mighty fugly in my opinion.
(We might win a limited edition USB LOL)


Iceeeeeee-creeaaaaaammmm! :)

P/s: Just cuz I'm a second year student doesn't mean I'm BORING kaaayyy. :P

#Random facts
  1. My PsychSoc vice treasurer is so cute. Today he told me, "okay la fine as vice treasurer I"m supposed to be submissive to you" LOL.
  2. CK forgot my name =.=
  3. There is not enough parking in uni
  4. I feel like baking everyday
  5. Life keeps playing me. Many many times.
  6. Now I know what empty this is.
  7. Yellow=sunshine :)
#nowplaying Had Enough by Lifehouse

Friday, October 7, 2011

5 minutes

#nowplaying Who Am I by Casting Crowns


Weeeeee day 1 of my 5 minutes a day mission is a success. :) So successful that I didn't even NEED my 5 minutes. I kept saving it, so I just didn't complain and then turns out, I didn't even use it. So, it's all good I guess. 
Plus I think the endorphins from ultimate helped. Yes I finally dragged my lazy ass up and went for ultimate in uni because I signed up (paid RM15) and because I told Mark I'd go and because Justin teman me :P


I will, deal with whatever comes. All happens for a reason. I will pull through. And you know, maybe along the way, I'd be less dependent on you, and I'll finally make up my mind and not be confused, because well, time will just make everything easier, and time heals.
In the mean time, I'll just try and stay away from all songs that make me emo and that trigger repressed memories. And by repressed obviously I mean artificially repressed. If they were really repressed I wouldn't know I had those memories in the first place. 
(yes I am a psych student I speak about psych-ish things. DEAL WITH IT! hahahaha.)


Shaun gave me this phrase yesterday. And the more I read it, the more it really makes sense.


"The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning."

So yeah, very optimistic way of looking at things but it is so true. Maybe this so-called ending, is really only the beginning of better things to come. I don't wanna be sad and be down about it anymore. At least I cleared all the what ifs right? :) And it's okay if it never happened the way I wanted it to, I'll be thankful that at least, it grew in my heart. I'm pretty sure I'll take something from it. Slowly but surely :)

Sure I miss you. But I miss a lot of things, I miss a lot of people. Right now absence makes the heart grow fonder but soon it could be out of sight, out of mind. I just need time to change my perception for me. And when that happens, that means things are more than okay already. Cuz even as they are now, they're okay :)

#nowplaying Closer to the Edge by 30 Seconds to Mars

P/s: Guys who play ultimate frisbee :) When they jump into the air and catch the disc with that style and that attitude it makes them look good. Hmmm, should definitely find a bf who plays ultimate frisbee. Volleyball and basketball are SO yesterday :P