Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas! :)

I wish it were snowing in Malaysia :/

But it doesn't matter, my favourite season of the year is here!
The best part of Christmas is having awesome awesome food, plus the company of all my loved ones :)
I couldn't be happier.
Merry Christmas everyone :D

Sunday, December 4, 2011


I'm sorry.
Can we be okay now?
Curse me and my stupid pride.
I really am sorry.
I say the stupidest things sometimes.
And I don't even mean them.
But I know words cut like a knife.
And I can't ever take them back.
I only hope you know I never meant them.
I really didn't.
I screwed up and I'm sorry.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Trust Issues

This might just be a problem I never knew I had.
So difficult for me to just let go and let things take its course sometimes.
It takes a lot for someone to earn my trust. 

Hate it when it feels like I did something wrong but I don't know for sure cuz people won't tell me.
Instead they just say ok and I'm left with the idea that I must have said something wrong but I don't know how to go about fixing it.
I kinda just wish people would confront me and tell me I was wrong.
And then to top it off, I feel like I'm being avoided sometimes.


On another note, I go in for love and life in 2 more days. 
Just 2.
Perhaps the 7 days away will be a blessing in disguise for me
Miracles happen but I guess this is just not the time for it.
I tried, I really did.
But I cannot make miracles happen, and I guess God didn't think this was an appropriate one to make happen.
2 more days, and I'll be gone for 7 days. 
No expectations.
I am who I was 2 years ago.

Friday, December 2, 2011


Maybe it'd be easier if I was that type of person who doesn't need anyone, and who doesn't mind being alone. Like how some people actually LIKE being alone, and dislike having crowds or people around them. Yeah I wonder what it feels like being them. I probably wouldn't mind my situation so much if I was that type of person, which I am not.


On another note, our bake sale was successful :) Sold out everything. And collected money for Open Hands as well. I know I swore I wouldn't bake cupcakes for like a few months after our Sg Long fundraising but I did. I baked again for the PsychSoc bake sale. Tiring as hell again, but fun :)

Cupcakes all lined up to be sold :)

Love and Life in 3 days. Don't think I'm ready. Still praying for something to happen somewhere.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Coming undone

Too long.
Too much.
I'm going to have to decide, as much as I don't want to.
Why won't you say anything to me? 
I just need one word. One. Anything. Just one.
Then I'll stay.
I promise.
I will.